On 17 JUNE 2011 was the day I lost the most precious daddy and the worst moment of my life.
He died cause of internal bleeding in his brain BUT the doctor couldn't explain any further.
He did not fall or knocked his head, no sickness, no disease and went for yearly check-up.
He fainted on 16 June, Thursday morning, when I was in class.
I will never forget his smiling face that morning as I told him I was about to leave for class.
He doesn't knock on anything nor hit his head as he fainted on the sofa.
My mum was so afraid that she called for ambulance BUT the ambulance reached AFTER my brother came back home from Pulau Gadong.
My mum and brother brought my dad to Mahkota Hospital and on the way there, my mum kept calling my dad to wake up but it doesn't work and she felt my dad's heartbeat has stopped.
My mum called me several times and told me to stop my class immediately and go to hospital as soon as possible.
At first, I don't understand why is all this happening and I NEVER thought that my dad would just gone like that. He always told us health is very important and for every small little flu or cough, he would insist us to check the doctor.
On my way to Mahkota Hospital, I never thought of anything bout my dad being in a critical state.
The moment I reached there, I saw my mum crying badly and my brother shed his tears.
My heart really sinked. I was so afraid.
The doctor told us to be strong and if miracle happens, he would be in coma for the rest of his life as his brain already dead.
But my dad passed away the very next early morning. He did not wake up eversince he fainted and trust me, I have lots and lots of things to say.
I've got no chance to tell him, "Daddy, I love you"..
I couldn't accept the fact that he's gone just like that.
Well, who can accept a sudden death?! NONE.
Even my dad don't.
And today, I finally understand how short and sudden life can be.
You might live today but dead tomorrow.
No one knows.
As for my mum, she appears to be stronger than I expected.
She told me to be strong and study very hard.
She said she wants to take care of his children and that's what my dad wants her to be.
Everynight, she would hug my dad's clothes until fall asleep.
I know deep down in her she missed him so much that the only thing that she wanna do now is to be strong for my dad and life goes on.
I'm very proud of her but no matter what, I still need to be by her side. She needs us.
I told her, "Mummy, I love you" without any hesitation or awkward-ness because I knew if I don't tell her, I will regret for the rest of my life.
My dad will always be the best dad and he left us with all beautiful memories.
He will protect us.
HE IS THE BEST AND I LOVE MY DAD!!!
Life goes on.
I never regret being in this loving family and in fact I LOVE THEM ALOT! <3
Be strong Emilia. I know it's hard to lose someone you love and no one can ever console you because it's impossible. The sadness that befalls on a person is describable and it's hard to say. I've lost my grandmother this afternoon and I was supposed to be "prepared" because she had been ill for sometime. I thought I would take it strongly and calm the rest but I never expected that I was inconsolable. It's very hard to accept death especially someone you really really really love. Take care and God bless.
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